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Hearts of the Past and Present

Where is she?

The world I knew hauled to a stop. Everyone in the room had frozen over, like someone had paused our lives. My heart beat was the only sound, it felt like it was in my ears instead of my chest.

She's here? Bella is here?

My breath was now a lot quicker, my chest was rising and falling.

"She's where?"

That didn't sound like my voice. I didn't feel like myself. I had been replaced by an angry she-devil, put on earth to get her revenge on those who betrayed her.

My voice was deep, furious and demanding. Where was she? Was she nearby? Did Daryl know her whereabouts?

But it dawned on me, when he said she was here he meant here in the prison.

"WHERE IS SHE?!" I screamed.

Was there smoke coming out of my ears? Because it sure felt like it.

My outburst unpaused the group and the people in the room began to move again.

Carl's face scrunched up when I screamed, I either hurt his ears or he didn't like to see me red in the face, or as a being from hell. I almost deafened Glen, he stood by my side instead of in between Daryl and I. Hershel's lips were pressed into a fine line, his eyes worried.

Rick and Michonne stayed where they were, holding back Pete although I should be the one being restrained.

Daryl shifted on his feet, rocking back and forth, "Lily don't be mad, I had to bring her here, I had no choice."

"YOU BROUGHT HER HERE AND YOU'RE ASKING ME NOT TO BE MAD?!" I roared.

Tears ran quickly down his face.

"Where is she?" I asked for the final time with my teeth gritted.

Daryl gave in, "She's in the bed block, locked in the cell." He said quickly, "Hear me out Lil!" He begged.

The bed block?! Near Beth with Judith, what the fuck was Rick thinking?!

I was in survival mode right now, I didn't listen to anymore of Daryl's begging and pleading. Bella was a threat and a danger to us all.

Destroy what destroys you.

I quickly swiped the gun out of Glen's back pocket and charged Daryl out of the way, he fell onto the table.

"No!" Rick shouted.

I darted through room and into the bed block. I held the gun out straight, holding it with two hands and my finger ready on the trigger.

I side stepped along, looking into each bed cell, the first contained Beth and Judith. Beth saw the look in my eye; crazy with anger, deranged. She protectively pulled Judith into her chest and turned her back to me.

Within seconds of my run, the rest of the group were behind me.

Daryl grabbed me, but instinctively I jumped back before his touch.

"Lily don't hurt her, ya can't! I'm so sorry I brought her here but-"

"Don't hurt her? Are you fucking serious Daryl?" I asked.

I pulled up my jumper and revealed the thick, silvery scar. "This is what she did to me, she nearly killed me, she drove me insane and you expect me to NOT hurt her? You're delusional."

I pulled my jumper back down and turned my back on him, still crying, he grabbed my free wrist.

I spun around and slammed the handle of my gun into Daryl's temple. He fell to the floor.

"Fuck you Daryl,"

I hadn't realised, until my voice broke on my last word, that I was crying. I lifted my hand to my face, my cheeks were soaked. God knows when I started to cry.

Maggie was now a face in the small crowd, she weaved her way through to the front.

"Lily," she said carefully, "Don't do anything you'll regret."

I scoffed, "Don't you worry, I won't regret this."

I continued my search through the bed rooms.

Everyone was behind me, shouting at me, telling me to stop and think. Why should I stop? Why do they want me to stop? They saw the state I was in, Pete watched her do this to me, why were they trying to stop me.

"Bella!" I screamed. "Show yourself!"

The only sound in the room was my enraged breathing, almost like a growl.

But then, there was the sound of heels walking across the concrete floor.

Destroy what destroys you, I thought to myself.

In paranoia, I scanned the cells once more for a glimpse of her, find the feet to the noise. And in the cell under the stairs, under where Daryl sleeps, were the thigh high leather boots that belonged to Bella.

All I could see were her longs legs that were skinnier than ever, the tops of her boots were hanging off, too loose for her. By her sides, from all that what I could see, were her hands cuffed in fur. She still had that fur coat. Her hands were white, her fingers long, it was the hand of a skeleton.

I clicked the gun so it was ready to shoot, I held it steadily with arms outstretched.

I could feel the breath if everyone on my neck, I was only centimetres away from their touch. They were ready to pull me back and restrain me when things got too intense.

But what was niggling at the back of my mind was why, why were they stopping me?

The shadow of the stair case covered her upper body.

"Who do you think you are coming here? How dare you show your face here?! After what you did to us? After what you did to me?" I shouted. "How fucking dare you!"

I may have sounded violet, angry and even scary, but the tears continued to fall. Were they sad tears or angry? For now, they were just plain rage tears.

There was no reply.

"Tell me! Talk to me!" I ordered, "Show me your face!"

I strutted forward and slipped the gun in between the bars of the cell door, the barrel of the gun was resting on her forehead. With my other hand, I grabbed hold of her neck.

I got a good look at Bella's face, her cheek bones were a lot more defined under her pale white skin, her eyes were dilated above deep bags, her lips were almost translucent, they were dry and cracked. This was the face of a very unhealthy woman, she was looking a lot like Hayden and Olly.

Everyone behind me gasped and stepped forward in sync.

"Lily no-"

"Shut up Daryl, I want to hear from the devil's daughter." I turned my attention back to Bella. "You think we're just going to take you in and look after you? Now you have no brutes to protect you. What happened to Martinez? Hmm? Did you shag him for so long, get bored and left him for the walkers? I guess so."

"They got him, there was nothing I could do.." Her voice and reply surprised me. She was quiet, her voice was almost a whisper and she sounded genuinely upset over the death of Martinez.

"Oh deary me, such a shame. He was a dead nice guy too. Oops sorry, wrong choice of words."

I felt something wet touch the hand which held Bella's neck, she was crying.

"Don't cry you pussy," I shouted, "This is nothing, nothing compared to what you put me through!"

"Lily calm down, and don't do it." Rick said.

"Calm down, why the fuck should I calm down? Why have you even let her in here? And I could do it you know, I could kill her right now."

I toyed with Bella, tracing the gun from left to right on her forehead.

"Please don't kill us," she said.

"Us?" I repeated, confused.

"Me and my baby."



The world had stopped again, I felt dizzy, my vision was blurred, was I going to faint?

Carol's murderer and my torture was literally in my hands, I was capable of killing her and getting my revenge but she was untouchable. She was pregnant.

I dropped the hand that held to gun to Bella's head to my side and stepped back.

She shifted her stance, pulling the sides of her coat away to reveal a small bump. She wasn't lying.

I shook my head, "No, no, that's not fair, no." I ran my hands through my hair, "You shouldn't even be alive! Never mind be growing a life inside you!"

I gasped for air as I began to sob, "I swear to fucking god, if it wasn't for that baby your brains would be smeared all over that back wall."

In rage, I threw the gun and it smacked against the wall. I crouched down, my knees underneath my chin, fearing that I was going to faint.

Wait.

Who's baby is it?

Like a flash flood, a new wave of fury washed through me.

"It's yours isn't it?!" I marched over to Daryl, I screamed in his face. "You've shot your load into Carol's murderer!!" I said in the most grotesque way to make it sound 100 times worse than it already was.

"No! No, I haven't. It's not mine!" He defended himself, the tears for the time being had stopped.

I slapped him across the face, "You liar!" I thrusted my knee up in between Daryl's legs and before I could inflict anymore pain, I was pulled off him by Rick and Maggie, Glen and Michonne helped Daryl back away as he was keeled over in pain.

"You fucking bastard!" I screamed as I kicked about in Rick's firm hold.

Things began to click into place and they were a lot clearer. I thought it through.

'I brought her here,' Daryl said. He must have know where she was for him to do so, this couldn't have been a coincidence.

I shook out of Rick's grasp.

"You've been seeing her?" I guessed, "Every hunt, every trip out into the forest, you've been visiting her?"

Daryl was still keeled over, unable to answer right now as I had kneed his balls back into his stomach.

"Yeah, he has." Surprising me, Rick answered.

It clicked again, every cold look, every edgy comment, Rick had known.

"You knew?" I asked, "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you stop me from falling in love with that fucking bastard?!" I had now put the blame on Rick when there was little he could have done.

I broke down and cried into Rick's chest, he wrapped his arms around me.

The man I loved, didn't love me.
The man I loved, loved someone else.
The man I loved, loved a murdered.
The man I loved, was going to be a father, and it wasn't my child.

"Lily," Daryl wheezed, "That's not my fuckin' baby." He managed.

Bella spoke up, "It's not, it's Phillip's. It's The Governor's."

I looked up to her and wiped my eyes.

"I promise. I'm about 4 months, there's no way in hell this is Daryl's. Even if he knew I was alive 4 months ago, this couldn't be his. He wouldn't do that to you." Were my ears deceiving me, was Bella comforting me?!

"Yet he does this?!"

"He's not doing this for me, but for my baby." She explained.

"His baby?" I was determined to get the truth.

"No. See he doesn't have to do this because it isn't his, but he is, this is the type of guy who has your heart and you have his. You have this caring gentleman." Bella tried to make this one of Daryl's pros, when to me it was a major con.

"I don't have him, and he doesn't have me." I said, disgusted. "I don't want him."

"I knew it Lily, I knew he'd hurt ya." Oh here it comes, the I told you so from Uncle Pete. "He doesn't deserve you and you deserve better. And she deserves to be dead." He added.

"They both need to get the fuck out of here now." I said, "I can't be near them, It's either them or me." I gave the group an ultimatum before leaving to tend to Hayden and Olly in the living block.

Notes

I hope this lived up to all your expectations. I was crazily over whelmed when I woke up to 6 new comments this morning. Taking the opportunity to say thank you all very very much for reading and commenting on my story. I've really enjoyed writing these fanfictions!! Xx

Comments

Girl, its been like 4 months since u last updated.

ElyseStyle ElyseStyle
6/6/14

Girl, its been like 4 months since u last updated.

ElyseStyle ElyseStyle
6/6/14

Love it, Lily and Bella bonded how sweet anyhoo great chapter can't wait to read more update as soon as u can :)

MoMo_chan92 MoMo_chan92
1/23/14

@Alice_Weekes
thank you! :D

walkingrosie walkingrosie
1/23/14

@SierraaDixon
Hahaha thank you so much!!! X

walkingrosie walkingrosie
1/23/14