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Hearts of the Past and Present


Hayden and I sat talking for what felt like hours into the night, we had no interest in going to bed yet till we heard a distinct cough.

It was from Daryl's new cell.

"I guess we're keeping him up," I sighed.

Hayden shrugged, "So," then cheekily smiled.

I laughed lightly, "I think we should get to bed, I'm surprised you don't want to sleep yet."

"You have no idea what it's like to not talk to a girl in so long, to not talk to anyone but your brother in weeks. Sleep can wait."

"So you enjoy the female company?" I winked.

"I sure have missed it." He smiled.

"Well Maggie's taken, Beth's available.." I hinted at a possible hook up, although Olly was more so her age.

I felt slightly awkward and uncomfortable, with the look on his face I knew what was coming next.

"And what about you?" He asked.

"I'm emotionally unavailable and pretty much fucked up right now." I said, shooting Hayden down.

"You won't be forever," he smiled again and rose from the bed.

I stood up with him, "Thank you again," I said and went on my tiptoes to reach his cheek with my lips.

"No," he said graciously, "Thank you."

I followed Hayden to his cell with the keys rattling in my pocket, "Just a precaution," I said with a smile as I closed his cell door.

"I understand. But I wouldn't do anything that would jeopardise what Olly and I have now."

"A home." I said as I turned the key.

I returned to my cell, placed the keys on my stool and rested my head to my pillow. Sleep came easily to me. After a long and emotional day, my body and mind needed to rest. With all the news, revelations, you would have thought I would have cried myself to sleep, but instead, I smiled as I slipped into a world of my imagination.

My eyes fluttered open, beams of sunlight shone across my face through the high ceiling windows, through my cell door. I rolled over, and my whole room was lit up.

Had I slept in?

I looked at the empty stole, where were the keys?

I scrambled out of bed, quickly throwing on the clothes from yesterday. Jeans, thick socks, t-shirt, jacket and I had a coat downstairs waiting for me when I ventured outside into the winter air.

I looked around the corner, Hayden was up. I looked into the cell next to his, Olly was also up.

"Rick, did you take the keys?" I called to downstairs as I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes.

No answer.

"Rick?" I walked to the stairs, a little confused.

Where was Daryl's bed?


Last night was slowly coming back together in my mind. Daryl was locked in a cell last night.

I turned to look into the cell he occupied. Last night must have been hell for him, the reason he sleeps on the open hallway was because he hates sleeping in such a small space, a prison cell, so that on top what would have been running through his mind.. I doubt he got much sleep.

"Daryl?" I asked weakly. A little shy and embarrassed, I shouldn't have locked him in there myself last night. I think that was one step too far.

The cell was empty. I wearily made my way downstairs to the group.

Everyone was whispering and keeping quiet, you could cut the tension in the room with a knife.

Maggie and Glen sat with Hershel having breakfast, Rick had Judith on his knee, bouncing her up and down, Pete was chatting with Beth and Michonne who sipped at hot lemon water, Carl was in the corner talking quietly with Daryl and in the opposite corner, sat at the table were Hayden and Olly.

Hayden was sat back, relaxed, just watching the morning antics. He watched the group move and interact, he watched Rick with baby Judith intently, in awe. Every so often his eyes would flicker to Daryl who pretended that the brothers weren't even there.

On the other hand, Olly was drumming his fingers on the table. He was unrelaxed and completely in edge. There was anger inside him, building up with every second that passed with Daryl in the same room as him. His eyes never left his face.

"Morning, hey Rick did you take the keys?" I asked.

There was the look if relief on Glen and Maggie's face as I entered the living cell. I gave them a smile.

Rick sat Judith on his hip and walked over to meet me. "How are we this morning?" He asked, ignoring my question.

"I think I'm okay, as long as she stays in that cell I'm fine." I replied.

Rick pressed his lips into a fine line.

I noticed his guilty expression, "She is in her cell right?"

Before Rick could reply, the door that leads out of cell block C and deeper into the prison opened with a loud creek. A wet haired Bella appeared nervously.

"I thought we were locking her up!" I shouted.

Bella protectively placed her hands on her small bump.

I lowered my voice but it was angry and shaky, "She isn't safe. She isn't trusted. SHE'S A MURDERER!"

Pete stepped forward from his conversation with Beth and Michonne, "She only had a shower Lily, please."

"She shouldn't be allowed to so anything out of that cell!" I said.

I turned back to Rick, "You are letting a murderer walk freely among your children, amongst your baby girl?" I asked.

Rick rolled his eyes, "It's just a shower Lily."

He went into his pocket and threw the chain of keys into Daryl's hands. "Back to the cell."

Daryl nodded once and led Bella through the living cell into the bed cell, as Bella passed Rick and I she whispered a thank you.

"I am not happy about this." All the anger from yesterday had returned, but no upset came with it. I was very straight minded right now. "I thought you were all on my side!"

"There's no side, Lily." Rick put his hand on my shoulder. "There are rights and wrongs, and human rights. I wasn't doing to stop a pregnant woman having a shower."

"She needs to be watched when released then! At the very least, have someone guard her." I suggested, but it was more of a demand.

Carl spoke up, "I agree to that. Keeps us safe, keeps Judy safe."

"I agree too."

"Me too."

"I thought we said this wasn't a democracy anymore?" Rick asked the group with raised eye brows.

"Sorry sheriff." I said and turned for a canteen of water.

The living cell was even quieter now with me present. The only place I felt comfortable right now was with Maggie and Glen; they know me, they understand me, they won't judge. And Maggie, she believes that she shouldn't be here.

"You think I'm right don't you?" I asked as I sat down.

"Bella having an escort? Yeah, definitely. It would keep people calm, I think." She said with a shrug.

"No, I mean, from what I said last night. Bella shouldn't be here." I sounded so desperate.

"Hmm, I don't know Lily. She is pregnant after all." Maggie was contradicting what she has said previously.

I was gobsmacked, "Glen?"

"You can't leave an woman and her unborn child out there to die. If you leave out all the other details, Daryl has done a good deed. An amazing deed."

I ran my hands through my hair, then slammed my hands off the table. "For gods sake."

Remember my therapy, remember my little project that will keep my mind occupied.

I went to Hayden and Olly's table, Olly seemed to have calmed slightly with Daryl out of sight. He was younger and a lot more impulsive than Hayden, and I still owed him a huge thank you.

I sat beside him and lightly placed my hand on top of his to stop the drumming. "Thank you Olly, thank you for yesterday. I didn't get to thank you properly."

"You're very welcome." He said although it was meant to be more sincere than it sounded.

Hayden watched his brother intently.

I looked deep into his eyes, "Don't do anything stupid Olly, okay?"

He nodded and placed his other hand on top of mine.

I picked up my coat, and pulled it on. I grabbed a ready-packed bag and swung it over my shoulder. I paused by the table of weapons and chose a rather large knife and a similar gun to my usual.

"I'm going out." I informed my uncle Pete.

"Don't be too long and stay safe sweetie." He said reluctantly.

There was no doubt that he was suspecting me to slip into my depressive ways again.

I marched out into the frosty morning air, pebbles of the stone drive crunched under foot.

"Wait up Lily," it was Carl's voice calling.

I turned around to see Carl and Michonne jogging lightly after me.

"You guys aren't stopping me from going." I said.

"Who said we were stopping ya? We're opening the gates." Michonne said with a smirk.

"Oh, thanks."

I had Carl and Michonne either side of me as I walked to the gate, reminding me that I wasn't alone and I didn't need to run away from my problems. I had people here who could help me, but I think I needed time alone, just for a short while.

"Thanks guys," I said as they opened the last gate.

"Stay safe." Michonne smiled.

"Come back soon." Carl said.

I gave him a fist bump, "You got it, don't worry about me."

I was surprised my Uncle Pete wasn't down by the gates too, even more so that he was letting me out of the prison altogether. There was no way in hell he would have before, that was half of the reason why I stayed inside the fencing during my 'phase'.

He must have knew that I could handle myself. Especially with adrenaline running through my veins.

I entered the forest, morning dew that hadn't completely frozen dampened my leather boots. The forest seemed a lot more majestical with frost covering nearly every leaf, nearly every inch of moss and piece of bark. The green was illuminated by streams of morning light. Green is the colour of balance and harmony, balancing head and heart. It is an emotionally positive colour, giving us the ability to love and nurture ourselves and others unconditionally. The forest was where I needed to be right now.

I wasn't wandering aimlessly, I had a place in mind, a place that seemed to be my saviour at my lowest points but I felt eyes upon me before I reached my destination.

"Stalking Daryl, really? Didn't have you pegged as one of those guys."

"Oh, I didn't know ya knew I was ere. And I didn't have ya down as a hunter." He replied, no shakiness in his voice or pain or guilt, he sounded like the Daryl I knew.

I turned around to find Daryl, only several meters away from me. He wore his usual, a shirt with the sleeves torn off, a pair of dark jeans, hunting boots, his cross bow on back, only the difference this time is that he wore a thick wooly scarf. Very masculine, I scoffed to myself.

In his hand was an unfamiliar blue and yellow flower, he twisted it in his fingers, making the petals spin out as if to twirl in a new dress.

"I want to talk to ya. Just us two, alone." He said.

"What's there to talk about?" I asked, the build up of tears began.

"There's everything to talk about."

"No, no there isn't." I threw my bag to the floor. "You Daryl, you've brought home a pregnant woman, a helpless lonely pregnant woman who has surprisingly lasted this long by herself and had no chance of surviving the winter out here. You're a hero, you're a good person. There's nothing to talk about."

Tears fell down my face, I pictured them freezing and turning to ice, as if they had been paused.

"This is your worst nightmare ain't it." He guessed.

I nodded, "Right now, I can't think of anything worse."

"You wanna know what my worst nightmare is?" He asked.

Daryl expected a reply, but I stared blankly at him.

"It's loosing you."

Before Daryl had even properly finished his sentence, I had closed the distance between us. I slammed my body against his and pressed my lips to his eager ones.

Lust and passion had taken over. I was, at the same time, in no control over my body as well as being completely incontrol, knowing exactly what I was doing.

I pulled off my coat, then undone a few buttons from Daryl's shirt. I tugged at his jeans as he undid mine. I was sure I wanted to do this.

Soon enough my bare legs were exposed to the freezing air, but there was a fire burning inside me.

Daryl slipped down a tree to the floor, manoeuvring me onto his lap.

"I love you, Lily. Only you." He said into my mouth.

"I know you do, I know." I replied breathlessly.


Updateeeeeee! Lily's emotions are crazy right now, and Daryl will do anything for her. Ain't it crazy cute? I'm planning one more chapter before around about a 2 or 3 month time jump so I can keep it interesting.

Just want ant to thank you all for being patient with me while I'm at college and not finding much time to write, but at the moment I have October half term so I'll try my very hardest to update often. Thank you! X


Girl, its been like 4 months since u last updated.

ElyseStyle ElyseStyle

Girl, its been like 4 months since u last updated.

ElyseStyle ElyseStyle

Love it, Lily and Bella bonded how sweet anyhoo great chapter can't wait to read more update as soon as u can :)

MoMo_chan92 MoMo_chan92

thank you! :D

walkingrosie walkingrosie

Hahaha thank you so much!!! X

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