My Guardian: Chapter Twenty-One: Part One
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So, I got this chapter up as quickly as possible. It took me a little while to start writing it, since I was still so upset after Sunday's episode of TWD.
"Alone" Spoiler Alert- if you haven't watched the "Alone" episode, just go directly to the chapter below ;) There were sooo many wonderful Bethly feels in this episode … and then …? Ugh! OMG, I died. My heart was ripped out of my chest – the look on Daryl's face … devastated. Omg, omg, omg … where's Beth! Anyways, iIt took me a while before I could get back to the place in this story where Daryl and Beth are in a good place … and together.
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Just to give you a heads up, I had to split this chapter in two … as I finished it up, I realized I'd written a 23 page chapter – whoa! I accidentally included a lemony scene that will be in Part Two, which I hadn't planned … but I felt like writing it, so there ya go! You'll have to wait until Sunday for the lemons though ;) LoLz
Now ... back to our story...!
Beth's POV –
It was afternoon now; The Council had been meeting for the last couple of hours. I had Judy with me; holding her tightly to my chest. I kept a bounce in my step as I paced back and forth in the common area and patted her back. She'd been real fussy since I fed her, which was not really like her. I figured she was probably just gassy and the just needed to be burped.
"Come on, sweetheart." I gave her a few more firm pats on the back until finally she let out a loud burp. "There ya go, get it out." She burped again, except this time she threw up on my shoulder.
Ewww … formula throw up.
There's probably nothin' that smells worse. Well, walkers smell worse, but they are dead - so that doesn't count.
"Ahh … it's aright Judy."
I pulled her away from and set her down in a little pack n' play. I looked her over and it looked like she was clean; she'd only thrown up on me.
"Hey Carl?" I yelled over to Carl who was just about to head outside. "Can you watch Judy for a minute? I gotta change."
Carl sauntered over to us; his Sheriff's hat was pulled down low so I could even barely see his eyes.
"Ya alright watchin' her by yourself?"
"Come on…! Course I am. She's my sister." He leaned down into the pack n' play and tickled her belly. Judy seemed to like it; I could see her smile back at him. "Go on. I got her." Carl nodded and motioned for me to go.
I ran up the stairs and into my cell, and quickly pulled off the soiled top. I lingered in the cell looking for my light purple tank top, but couldn't seem to find it.
"Shit ..! Where is it?"
I started tossin' clothes about and rummaged through an army duffel bag that I had stored some of my extra clothes. As I continued digging though the bag, I could hear footsteps approaching. I didn't have my sheets up covering the bars, which meant anyone could look in if they walked by. I quickly dumped out the bag of clothes on the cot and there it was; folding neatly in the pile. I heard the footsteps stop out on the catwalk, so I grabbed for it and covered myself; not wanting anyone to see me in just my bra.
"Hello …?" I called out to whoever was out there, but I didn't get a response. "Hello …?" Again, no response, so I turned to face away from the entrance and pulled the tank top up over my head.
Then I heard the crunching of someone's boots against the dirt and gravel on the catwalk … there was definitely someone out there! I got goose bumps and the hair on my arm was raised. It was the strangest feelin'; almost as if someone had been watchin' me. Ya know like when you're in the house alone and ya get chills down your spine, well that's what I'd felt.
Now that I was fully clothed, I walked towards the doorway of my cell and peered out. I checked to the left and to the right – no one. I even walked out to the railing and looked over to see if I could see anyone on the stairs, but there was no one there.
Hmm …? That's strange …
I could have sworn I heard someone, but maybe it was all in my head. Who knows … I was still kind of on cloud nine from last night, and maybe this was just an unexpected side effect.
Maybe havin' sex last night had givin' me a foggy head, maybe I was seein' and hearin' things?
I would definitely have to talk to Daryl and see if that's normal. I smiled to myself as I cheerfully made my way back down the stairs; images of last night kept streaming through my head. I finally got back down to the common room; Carl still was sittin' with Judy. As I approached them, I could see outta the corner of my eye; The Council meeting had let out and Rick was on his way over. We both made it to Judy and Carl at the same time; I reached in to pick up Judy.
"It's alright, Beth … I got her."
"Umm … okay."
Rick leaned down into the playpen and picked up his daughter. He tucked her blankets around her ever so carefully and cradled her in his arms. Rick immediately told her that he loved her and kissed her on the nose. And, then I watched as father and daughter just stared into each others eyes. It was actually a very sweet moment.
"Ahh, Rick … look at her! She just loves you."
Rick looked up and smiled graciously.
"Thanks Beth." Then he looked back down at Judy. "There's somethin' I wanted to talk to about. Somethin' we discussed in the meetin' today." Rick sat down on one the tables. "Go on and take a seat."
I nodded and sat down across from him.
"Everything okay, Rick?"
"Yeah, everythin's fine." Rick looked at Carol and tipped his head to the side; notifyin' his son that this was an adult conversation and to, basically, get lost. It didn't take more than that, and
Glenn immediately took off and started to walk outside.
"I got to talk to ya for a second." Rick's head just bobbed there for a moment, as he contemplated something. It must be serious by the way he looked right now. "I've stepped down from The Council." My eyes widened. "Just for awhile. And … I'm planning on spendin' more time with Carol and little Judy here."
"Okay. Well … that's great!"
I had said the first thing that I thought of, but didn't really think about what his statement meant for me.
Rick continued to look at me; I suppose he was waitin' for me to realize somethin' … which I finally did.
If he was gonna be takin' care of Judy more, then what the hell was I gonna be doin'?
"I'll still need your help of course, especially, while I'm workin' during the day. But, I want you to know that Carol has also volunteered to help out with Judy and pick up any slack between you and me."
"Okay. That's fine."
Sometimes it was a little weird to be havin' these conversations with Rick. I mean, its not like Judy was our daughter and we were tryin' to work out custody, visitation, and day care. I loved Judy and had become like a mother to her, I suppose. But, I always kept in my head that her real daddy was still alive; I wasn't her parent; I wasn't her mom – no matter how much at times it felt like that.
"Since I'm gonna be takin' Judy most nights from her on out, we're gonna have to find somethin' else for you to do around here when you've got days off …"
I could see Daryl outta the corner of my eye; the gait and stride of his walk was unmistakable. I turned to look and smiled. His muscular arms swayed back and forth, and I had to admit he had a little pep in his step today. I watched as I caught Daryl's gaze; his eyes lit up … well, as much as they ever did at least. Probably hardly enough for anyone else to notice unless they were payin' attention.
"Sup?" Daryl sauntered over to us; finally, stoppin' once he'd walk right to my side. Close but not too close. "How're you feelin' today, Beth?"
What? How's he gonna ask me a question like that?
I wanted to yell at the top of my lungs that I felt great. Really great! And, I loved every second he'd been inside of me … but, that wouldn't really have been an appropriate response in front of our current company. So, I bit my bottom lip to hide the huge smile that attempted to betray our little secret.
I looked him in square in the face as I spoke to him; I'd give him a little taste of his own medicine.
"I'm feelin' really good, Daryl." I let his name slip out slower than usual. "How bout you? How're you … feelin' to day?"
Daryl let out a little chuckle as he looked down at his boots and shook his head; his hand reached for his mouth to cover the shit eatin' grin that went from ear to ear.
"I'm good. Good … thanks for askin'"
Daryl and I just stared at each other for a moment until we both heard Rick clear his throat.
Both our heads snapped back to look at Rick; like outta some cartoon or somethin'. I felt like we were totally busted; my stomach started to do flips.
"So … you and Daryl, huh …?"
Rick calmly stated; not sayin' anythin' else. Daryl and I looked at each other briefly and back to Rick; he chewed the inside of his cheek contemplatively. "You and Daryl. You're gonna be supply run partners for a little while."
Wait! What …?
"What? What're ya talkin' bout Rick?" I looked over at Daryl who looked relieved; I'm guessin' he had also been thinkin' we'd just gotten caught by Rick. But, in reality, he hadn't seen a thing apparently.
"Well, Daryl? Ya gonna tell her or should I?" Rick smiled and patted Daryl on the back.
"I'll … I'll tell her." Daryl softly replied. He tried to play it cool, but I could tell he was really excited about somethin' underneath it all.
I chimed in, eagerly awaitin' whatever news they had to deliver to me. "Well? Ya gonna spit it out or what?"
Daryl put his hand to his chin and rubbed his wiry scruff.
"See …? The thing is … with Rick spendin' more time with Judy, The Council voted for you to get some more trainin'."
My mouth fell open; I certainly hadn't expected that! Daryl continued; he had a smug little smirk on his face.
"Yeah … well, I told the Council thought it was bout time you got some trainin' and some experience goin' on supply runs. And … they all agreed."
"So, this was your idea? You wanna train me? Out there?"
Daryl nodded and mumbled. "Mmm, hmm."
"Yeah." Daryl straightened up and dug his left hand into his front pocket. "We're headin out at sunrise tomorrow mornin'."
I couldn't believe it. Not only was I going to get more training, which I'd secretly been dyin' to do, but Daryl and I were gonna be alone … out on the road together. I could barely contain myself I was so freakin' excited. And, Daryl must've known how happy this would make me, but he wasn't lettin' it show. He was good at this whole playin' it cool in front of Rick. I tried to follow his lead.
"Wow! Well, that certainly is some news!"
"Yeah, I suppose it is time … I mean, you are an adult now. If you're grown up enough to raise a child, like you have here with Judy – you're ready for just bout anythin'. Because bein' a parent takes a lot of responsibility and is one of the hardest jobs in the world." He paused for a moment. "Which of course ya now know."
I nodded. "Yeah, but I love it. I love taken care of Judy."
Rick smiled. "I know ya do. And, ya still will be … just not full time like it's been. I wanna make sure she gets to know her daddy some more."
"Plus, you'll get some time to train and get experience out on the road. It's somethin' ya definitely need and … you're ready now."
"Ya sure are …!" Daryl was quick to add.
"Well … alright then. So, a supply run tomorrow?"
"Yep. We'll be gone for a few days, so ya might want to go pack."
"Geez … okay."
Rick nodded. "Go on now …"
"Hey! And, Beth …?"
"I'll be up later to check on your bag. Make sure ya packed everythin' you're gonna need."
"Good idea, Daryl." Rick added.
I shook my head and laughed a little, since I knew what Daryl actually meant when he said he'd "stop by later and check on my bag." Yeah, right! I leaned over and kissed the top of Judy's head and walked back over to the stairs. At the bottom of the staircase, I stopped and turned and called over to Rick.
"Do you want me to help ya get Judy down tonight?"
"Nah … I think I got it. Thank you though."
"If you could just bring her overnight bag and formula over downstairs, I would appreciate it."
As I walked back up towards my cell, my mind started to race. I seriously couldn't wait to get out on the road and get out of this prison for a little while. It would be a nice change of scenery … and, I'd get some alone time with Daryl.
This is gonna be so amazing … I can't wait!
After I'd dropped off Judy's things with Rick, I headed back to my cell to pack. The sun had set and the prison was already starting to quiet down. I was pretty sure I had remembered to pack everything, but was glad that Daryl could look over my bag one last time. It would suck to get stuck out on the road and have missed something. One item can be the difference between life and death sometimes. I thoughtfully considered my choices, when I heard a knock at my cell doorway. My eyes widened; darting to the exit of the cell. I thought it was going to be Daryl standing in my doorway, but it wasn't – it was Maggie.
"Hey …" She leaned her forearm against the doorway; shifting her hips and sliding one boot over the other. "Just wanted to check in on ya."
I nodded. "Thanks."
"So … you're goin' out on a run?" She paused and sauntered into the room. "With Daryl …?"
I didn't like the tone of her voice, so I got a bit defensive.
"Yeah, I am. Why?" I couldn't help but express my displeasure. "What's wrong with that?"
"Oh! Nothin' … Nothin' wrong. Just wanted to make sure that … you're sure ya wanna do this."
"What's that supposed to mean, Maggie?"
I stopped packing and was giving her my full attention now.
"It's just … well, it's your first run." She paused and sat down on the cot. "Are ya scared?"
"No, I'm not scared! Why should I be scared?"
Maggie spoke softly and reached her hand over and grabbed a hold of my forearm.
"Cause, Beth. It's dangerous out on the road. Ya never know what can happen."
"Jesus, Maggie. Stop bein' so overdramatic."
Maggie snapped a little. "Fine! You're really a Miss Know-it-all, do ya know that?!
"Really? Is that so?"
"It is. Ya don't have any clue how dangerous it is out there."
"I do know … but I'll be with Daryl." I paused. "I'm not worried."
Maggie laughed. "Well, ya should be." She paused and seemed to get very introspective. She stared down at her hands that were now clasped and layin' in her lap. "There's more than just walkers out there, Beth."
"I know that."
"People can be just as dangerous."
I felt agitated. I didn't know if she didn't trust me, if she didn't trust Daryl … or if she didn't have faith in either of us. I just really didn't know where this was all coming from and it was starting to really frustrate me.
"Maggie! I know …!"
"No, ya don't know."
I looked over as Maggie quickly wiped a tear from her cheek; she'd obviously not wanted me to see.
"Maggie … what is it? What's wrong?"
"Nothin', I'm fine." She sat up straight and brushed her hair back off her face. "It's nothin'. I just … I just want ya to be careful. Supply runs are dangerous … for many reasons. Just promise me you won't let your guard down … not even for a minute!"
"I promise, Maggie. I won't."
Her eyes started to water and a few tears streamed down her dirtied face; leavin' streaks all the way down to her chin.
"Maggie …? Seriously, what's wrong?"
Why was she getting so upset?
This was so unlike her to be so emotional; she had me concerned now. Maggie let out a deep sigh and rubbed the wetness from her cheeks on the back of her sleeve.
"Ya know, me and Glenn were out on a run." Maggie paused. "When Merle picked us up. Took us back to Woodbury. Back to the …" She paused. "You know …"
It made sense now. She was worried about me being out there on the road … because of the whole Governor thing.
"He's long gone by now, Maggie. The Governor."
"Please. Please don't even say his name, will ya?"
I nodded yes.
"Okay. But, still he's …definitely gone. Ya don't gotta worry bout that. And, even if he did come across me and Daryl …"
Maggie started to tear up again.
It looked like I'd made it worse.
"Come on, Maggie." I leaned over and wrapped my arms around the side of her and hugged onto her tightly. "Stop. It's going to be just fine."
Maggie reached up and grabbed my arm that was wrapped around the front of her and held on; she leaned her head onto mine.
"I hope so."
"Don't hope so … know so. Know that I'm going to be fine. I've got Daryl with me. What can go wrong?"
Maggie leaned up off of me and smiled.
"Sure. I suppose." She kissed my cheek like she did when we were little girls. "Alright. Well, I'm gonna leave ya to it." Maggie stood up and walked to the doorway. "Ya need anythin'? Any help gettin' ready?"
"No. Actually, Daryl's gonna stop by later and check my bag, so …"
Maggie got a huge smile on her face.
"Well, sounds like ya got it all covered then. I'm gonna head to bed."
"Alright. Good night, Maggie."
Another hour or so passed and it was nighttime now; the prison was pitched black and all I had to illuminate my room were small lanterns. My head was buried in a book, when I heard another knock at the doorway; however, this time it was Daryl.
My heart leapt when I looked up and saw him.
"Hey." Daryl whispered.
I quickly set the book down and smoothed some of my hair back. I wanted to at least attempt to look pretty for him if I could.
"Hi… come on in."
Daryl nodded to me and then looked over his shoulder and to the left and right of him.
He must be lookin' to see if anyone's around.
I totally understood, but it was still just too funny … him sneakin' around the prison and tip toeing into my room.
Daryl walked over and took a seat at the edge of the bed near my feet.
"What're ya doin' all the way down there?"
Daryl shrugged his shoulders, but before he could even get a word out I sat up just enough to grab him by the collar of his shirt and brought him down on top of me.
We landed together back on the cot with a thud.
Daryl propped himself on his elbows so we could look at each other; his body pressed against mine. I'd been achin' to be this close to him all day; the blood rushed to my cheeks as they started to flush with desire.
Daryl chuckled under his breath as he looked deep into my eyes.
"What …?" My breathing was becoming shallow with excitement. "I missed you, Daryl Dixon."
"Did ya now?" Daryl paused and licked his bottom lip. "I can see that."
"I mean it. After last night …" I paused. "I haven't been able to get ya outta my head."
Daryl smiled; turning his head to the side, he looked away.
God, I love that! He's so sexy when he gets all shy like that.
His shy facade came tumblin' down; his lips curled and a seductive smirk now graced his chiseled face.
"Yeah … me too." He leaned down and kissed me softly. "Been thinkin' bout ya all day too."
He nodded yes. "Mmm, hmm … course I have." He pressed his body closer to me; grinding his hips into mine. "You feel alright …? Ya know, about everythin'?"
Daryl's eyes were filled with love and concern; he was always makin' sure I was okay with things. And, of course I was … I'd wanted this for a while now.
"I feel great." I reached up and ran my fingers through his hair; gently tracing circles down his neck. "It was … perfect. Don't ya think?"
I knew it was … I just wanted to hear him say it.
"Sure was … never felt anythin' like that before."
I slid my hand down his face across his stubbled cheek; gently grasping his chin.
"Oh, come on … it was my first time."
"I'm serious. It was … the first time I'd been with someone that I loved." Hit bit his bottom lip.
"Never felt nothin' like that before."
"Ahh …" My hand cupped his face and gently pulled his mouth towards mine; kissin' him passionately. "I love you so much …"
As he caressed my shoulder and ran his hand down my arm; then sliding his hand up the side of my shirt. Daryl cupped my breast over the thin fabric of my bra. I moaned into his mouth; just his touch was enough to make my whole body tingle. He breathed heavily into my mouth as we kissed deeper.
He stopped for a moment, panting from the excitement. I could feel his hardness as it pressed into my thigh. He was definitely ready to go, but he was hesitating. I reminded him of our agreement.
"Hey … no more holdin' back, right?"
His lips curled into a smile; he shyly looked back at me and then nodded. "Mmm, hmm …"
I could tell he was starin' at my chest; my tank top had left little to the imagination. He reached for the strap of my shirt and bra and pulled it to the side, and leaned in and started placin' soft kisses along my shoulder and even bit down; nipping at the skin. I couldn't help the ridiculous smile I had, as I became lost in all the sensations.
"That feels good …" I mewed.
Daryl's kisses were always so sweet and tender; every one was out of love. I could feel it. He found his way back to my lips. Our kisses felt like we were made for each other, if that makes any sense. They were perfect – we were perfect. Every movement of our tongues and lips was matched by the other in some sinfully delicious dance. I couldn't get enough of him, so I figured I'd tell him.
"I want you, Daryl." He pulled away from me to look me in the eyes. "I want you … please."
I could have died right then and there with the way he was starin' back at me. I'd never had anyone look at me with so much love and desire before. It was unnerving; it was wonderful; it was as if every part of my mind, body and soul now belonged to this man.
Could makin' love do that to a person? I thought to myself.
"I want you too …" He paused for a moment and looked away. "It's just …"
I started to get self-conscious.
"What? What is it?"
Maybe he didn't want to do it again? Maybe he didn't enjoy it?
"It's just … I don't have any protection. Ya know? With me …"
"Oh …!" I paused as I contemplated the information. I immediately started rackin' my brain, toyin' with the idea of havin' him run back to the guard tower and get some.
No, because others were out on watch tonight – they might see him. Glenn was out there. And, someone might see him sneak back up here. We'd already risked him sneakin' in once; he might get caught a second time …
Then, I figured it couldn't hurt if just this once if we didn't use a condom. Right?
"Well, maybe … we can still …"
"Beth, I dunno … I dunno if that's a good idea."
"Sure, why not?" I paused and pressed myself against him. "I want you so badly …"
I quickly thought to where I was in my cycle. I know I was going to get my period in about a week or so. It should be okay, I figured.
"I … I …"
"Beth … we can jus wait."
"No!" I quietly demanded. I supposed I started to pout a bit. "I really want you. It'll be fine. Jus don't … ya know? Finish inside …" I paused. "Ya know, pull out?"
Daryl shook his head.
"Oh, yeah? And, how do ya know bout that?" He laughed under his breath; he seemed nervous.
"Well, I … read about it. I know what it is. But, if you don't wanna …"
I turned my head; lookin' away from him. Daryl leaned down and kissed my cheek and replied.
"Yeah. Well … it doesn't always work, Bethy"
I don't know why, but I was feelin' very much rejected at the moment. I was bein' turned down for sex … and this would just be my second time. It just felt weird. I mean, I appreciated his caution; I suppose I should be grateful he's so thoughtful of the situation. But, right now I wish he wasn't …
"I guess …"
"We'll have the next couple of nights out on the road." He kissed my cheek and then a trail of kisses down the soft exposed skin on my neck. "And, we can still have fun tonight though …"
He has a point …
I knew he was bein' careful, but I couldn't help it. I just wanted to feel him again. Feel close to him like that. Last night was incredible … and I guess I just wanted to feel that again.
"Oh, yeah …? What'd ya have in mind?"
END OF CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE: PART ONE
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Chapter Twenty-One: Part Two Teaser: I wasn't planning on it, but I wrote a lemony chapter - oopsy :) Also, Beth and Daryl head out on their supply run, but not before they have a lapse in judgement and Beth runs into Nick - who has something important he wants to tell her. Hmm ...
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