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You Are The Wilderness - The Walking Dead Fanfiction

Chapter 13 - Goodbye Sophia


Rick
's POV

I was heading to our tent when Lori pulled me aside saying she needed to talk to me. I sighed; I thought we were clear on the Hershel situation. She dragged me away from the camp and then just stood there looking at me.

“What's up?” I asked baffled and curious.

“We can't leave. I'm pregnant.” she said, the expression on her face unreadable. I just stood there trying to process what I just heard.

“You're what?” I asked not waiting for her response. “And you're telling me this why?”

“I need you.” she said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world and started towards me. She stopped dead in her tracks when she saw the look in my eyes.

“I'm sorry but I still don't see how this is my responsibility,” I started aggravated. “You've been shacking up with Shane behind my back all this time, not even having a decency to say anything, just sneaking around hoping I wouldn't notice. And yet, this morning, you were in my face for not telling you about Hershel.” I added incredulously. “I don't care who you're sleeping with, not anymore, but I still don't understand what you want me to do about this. You're pregnant? Talk to Shane, it's not my problem anymore.” I realized I was being too harsh but I've had enough of it at that point.

“We broke up,” she said quietly. “Before we got to the farm. I ended it with him because he's not the one I want to be with.” she said. I had no idea what to say to that so I just walked away slamming the gate behind me. I felt like my skull was going to split in half. I was really pissed at Lori at that moment, yet I still felt sort of responsibility towards her. She was a family after all.
I walked into our tent to find Kiara sitting pensively on the cot. I took off my holster belt and smashed it against the chair stronger than I intended making her jump up.

“What happened?” she asked concerned. I just sat down next to her not sure where to start; the magnitude of what just Lori told me starting to sink in.

“Lori's pregnant,” I said looking at her. She didn't seem surprised.

“I know,” she said making me look at her incredulously. “I went with Maggie and Glenn on a pharmacy run today, that's how I learned. I was just thinking about the right way to tell you. Does Shane know?”

“You knew about Shane and her?” I asked irritated. “Why didn't you say anything?”

“I, I wanted to but,” she started stuttering, flustered probably because of my tone, but I didn't have any energy left to try to keep my temper anymore.

“But what?!” I snapped at her.

“Just hear me out. The day we found the church, I overheard their conversation. That's how I learned. I wanted to tell you but then Carl got shot and everything was happening so fast and it just slipped my mind completely. I'm so sorry.” she said and reached out her hand towards me but I flinched. I was so angry I needed to get out of there so I just stormed off.

I took a long walk to calm my nerves. I realized I was awful to Kiara even though she did nothing wrong and I hated myself for it. I felt so stupid for snapping out at her like that.

It was getting dark so I went back to our tent wanting to apologize and fearing her reaction. What if she sends me away? I couldn't even bear the thought of that but I had to make things right. I stepped inside to find her sleeping huddled up in a ball, her face tearstained. “Now you've made her cry, you asshole” I mentally scolded myself. I sat next to her on the cot and shook her lightly. She whimpered a little clearly not happy about being waken up.

“Kiara? Baby, wake up. I need to talk to you,” I whispered against her ear and kissed her temple lightly stroking her back with my hand. She slowly opened her eyes and they immediately started to tear up again. The apologetic look on her face was killing me because she did nothing wrong.

“I'm so sorry Rick. I should've told you right away,” she whispered back and sat up hugging me tight against her. I sighed in relief, she wasn't mad at me.

“No I'm sorry Kiara. I shouldn't have flipped out like that. I'm so sorry baby. I was so pissed off and wasn't thinking clearly. You didn't do anything,” I mumbled against her neck and kissed the sensitive skin under her jaw line breathing in her scent.

“It's okay babe. You had every right to be pissed,” she muttered and entwined her fingers into my hair. I helped her sit up on me so she could straddle me. She was already in her sleeping T-shirt and panties. I snaked my hands under her shirt pulling her closer to me then moving down to her backside and squeezing it lightly making her moan with pleasure and tug on my hair.

“I love you baby. I need you, now,” she moaned against my lips as she worked open my pants and took out my member stroking it lightly, making me groan loudly. I pushed her panties aside and positioned myself at her entrance not waiting for an invitation and with one swift movement I slammed myself into her. The sensation made her arch her back and I reached to take her shirt off as she started to move on top of me slowly, unbuttoning my shirt and kissing my exposed chest. I looked up into her fierce eyes breathing heavily as she pressed her forehead against mine and quickened her pace eliciting breathy moans that vibrated through my whole body making me shiver. I moved my lips to her breasts, kissing, licking and nibbling hungrily everywhere I could reach making her whimper and writhe in my embrace.

I could tell she was close by the way her walls started to clench around me so I put my hips into work making every thrust more intense and soon she was arching her back, breath hitching in her throat. The sight of her like that made me follow her sending the most intense waves of pleasure through my body. I couldn't contain myself and I bit her shoulder making her hiss in pain and pleasure. We just sat there for a while, motionless, and then laid down on our cot sweaty and spent, limbs and hearts entwined and drifted off into a peaceful slumber.

Kiara's POV


We were sitting by the campfire eating scrambled eggs and I looked over at Rick deep in thought absentmindedly staring into the flames. I rubbed his neck and kissed his temple lightly.
“Earth calls Officer Grimes,” I toned quietly so only he would hear me.

“I'm here,” he said with a small smile on his lips and squeezed my thigh lightly. My gaze then fell on Glenn who sat a little bit further going back and forth between starring at Maggie who stood on the front porch scowling and then at Dale and me. I nodded at him encouragingly. I knew Maggie would be pissed, but they needed to know.

“Uhm, guys?” he started quietly standing up making everybody look up at him somewhat amused. Why couldn't they take him seriously for once?

“So… the barn's full of Walkers.” Da-da-daaah. Now he had their attention and I was mentally preparing myself for the shitstorm that would no doubt follow.

We were down at the barn and Shane was peeping through a gap between the wood planks and jumping back abruptly when one of the Walkers started snapping at him. “You cannot tell me you're all right with this.” Shane growled brushing past me and Rick with obvious distaste.

“No, I'm not, but we're guests here, this isn't our land,” Rick raised his voice.

“For god's sake this is our lives man!” Shane yelled.

“Lower your voice,” Lori scolded him.

“We can't just sweep this under the rug!” Andrea chimed in.

“It ain't right, not remote,” T-dog joined in.

“We either gotta go in there, gotta make things right, or we just gotta go,” Shane started. “Now we've been talkin' 'bout Fort Bennin' for a long time…”

“We CAN'T go!” Rick shouted.

“Why Rick, why?!” Shane asked exasperated.

“Cause my daughter's still out there,” Carol told him as if it was the most obvious thing in the world.

“Okay,” Shane muttered scoffing a little. “Okay I think it's time that we all start to just consider the other possibility…”

“Shane!” Rick bellowed. “We're not leaving Sophia behind!”

“We're close to finding this girl! I just found her damn doll a few days ago!” Daryl cut in making Shane laugh at him.

“You found a doll, Daryl. That's what you did. You found a doll!”

“You wanna tell me what the hell are you talkin' 'bout!?!”

“Hey look, I'm just sayin' what needs to be said here!” Shane argued while Rick was trying to calm him down. “You get a good lead, it's the first forty-eight hours, after that you don't – let me tell you somethin' else man! If she was alive out there 'n' saw you coming, all methed out with your buck knife, geek ears around your neck, she would've run in the other direction man!”

“Shut up!” Daryl growled and lunged at Shane. “Just stop!” Rick shouted and pushed the two men apart and I grabbed Daryl by his arm, tugging him away telling him to calm down. “Just stop!” Rick repeated. “Back off!”

“Keep your hands off me,” Shane warned pointing his finger into Lori's face.

“Now just let me just talk to Hershel. Let me figure it out,” Rick reasoned with Shane but without any success.

“What are you gonna figure out?!” Shane roared and started towards Rick but I pushed him back shouting.

“ENOUGH! Stop shouting at each other, you're making them all riled up!” I pointed at the barn door that was shaking under the pressure of the undead trying to get out.

“If we're gonna stay, if we're gonna clear this barn, I have to talk him into it. This is his land!” Rick reasoned and Dale walked up to him saying:” Hershel sees those things in there as people. Sick people – his wife, his-his stepson.”

“You knew?” Rick asked incredulously.

“Yesterday, I talked to Hershel,” he said.

“And you waited the night!” Shane barked at him.

“I thought we could survive one more night. We did!” Dale retorted saying he wanted to say something but that Glenn wanted to be the one. Shane and Rick started to shout at each other again but before I could set them straight, the door began to rattle even more violently making everybody back off a little.

After that everybody just wandered off listless. Rick went to talk to Hershel, Shane was down at the barn keeping watch and I decided to borrow a horse and look for Sophia along with Daryl. Hershel told him he needed to recover first but the mulish redneck was having none of it so I offered I'd go with him. I was heading down to the stables when I heard the exchange between him and Carol and saw him storm off in the opposite direction. I went back to our tent and laid down a bit reading a book Dale lent me waiting for Rick to come get me when he was done talking with Hershel.

Moments later he walked in telling me to get ready. I could see on his face that something was bugging him.

“How'd it go?”

“Well, we're negotiating. I told him Lori's pregnant so… I also told Shane.” he said looking down on the ground. “I thought he should know.”

“Yeah, he should know, but you should've let Lori tell him.”

“I'm not sure she wants him to know. Yesterday… it almost seemed as if she wanted me to take her back or somethin',” he muttered making my blood boil with rage and insecurity. I had to look away because of the tears that started to well up in my eyes. What if he decides to get back with her?

He must have sensed something was wrong with me because he forced my head up making me look up at him and said. “But that's not my problem. Listen to me! I won't let this destroy what we have. I love you Kiara and nothing can change that. I will help her as much as I can, she is family after all, but I love you and I want to be with you and nobody else.”

I couldn't muster any words at that point, relief washing over me, so I just smiled weakly at him. He pulled me into a tight embrace and kissed me roughly making me believe every word he just said.

“I know. I'm sorry for acting like such a stupid head. I love you Rick and I'll help you take care of her,” I said. “You shouldn't do everything alone.”

He kissed me once more and we headed out to meet up with Andrea to go out and look for Sophia. We were getting ready, looking over the map one last time when Hershel came up to us asking Rick for help. Andrea and I offered too but he refused saying he just needed Rick.

Andrea went to keep watch down at the barn and I went to find Carl and play some checkers with him whilst I waited for Rick to come back. We witnessed and exchange between Glenn and Maggie and then the reconciliation as well to which Carl reacted in accordance with his age whining “Eeeeewww” as loudly and for as long as possible making us all laugh our asses off.
Rick and Hershel had been gone for a while, Shane and Dale weren't at the camp as well and I was starting to worry. I was looking around nervously when I saw Andrea and T-dog heading in our direction.

“Do you know what's goin' on?” T-dog inquired followed by Andrea asking where everyone was.

“You haven't seen Rick?” Glenn asked making me lift my head up from the board.

“He went off with Hershel,” I answered.

“We were supposed to leave a couple hours ago.” Andrea added frowning.

“Yeah you were. What the hell?” we heard Daryl call out walking up to us followed by Carol. “He told us he was goin' out.”

“Dammit isn't anybody takin' this seriously?” he asked incredulously. “We got us the damned trail.” he turned around gesturing wildly and noticed Shane walking towards us with the duffel with guns. “Ah, here we go.”

“What's all this?” Daryl asked as Shane approached him.

“You with me man?” he asked, maniacal expression on his face. Daryl nodded curiously taking the shotgun from Shane's hand. I stood up and hurried down the stairs curious as to what he was up to.

“Time to grow up!” he growled. “You already got yours?” he asked me and Andrea.

“Yeah, where is Dale?” Andrea asked.

“He's on his way,” Shane muttered with disgust.

“Thought we couldn't carry?” T-dog inquired as Shane was handing him a pistol.

“Yeah well we can and we have to,” Shane told him. “Now look, it was one thing standin' around here 'n' pickin' daisies when we thought this place was supposed to be safe, but now we know it ain't!”

“Shut up Shane, what the hell are you doin'?” I barked at him.

“No you shut up Kiara, I've had enough of this!” he roared.

“How 'bout you man? You gonna protect yours?” Glenn looked hesitant at first but then took the shotgun from him. Shane then turned around at Maggie asking: “Can you shoot?”

“Can you stop?!” Maggie returned. “You do this, you hand out these guns 'n' my dad will make you leave tonight!”

“Shane! Stop! This is no way to deal with this situation!” I tried to reason with him, but no luck.

“We have to stay Shane!” Carl chimed in.

“We ain't goin' anywhere. Now look, Hershel, he's just gotta understand, okay? He, well, he's gonna have to.” Shane continued and walked towards Carl. “Now, we need to find Sophia, am I right?” he knelt in front of him handing him a gun. “Now I want you to take this. You take it and you keep you 'n' your momma safe. You do whatever it takes; you know how, go ahead.”

“That's enough,” I said cocking my gun and pointing it at Shane's head making him stop and turn around looking at me with disbelief. I've had enough of his bullshit and I'd be dammed if I let him take advantage of Rick's absence, rile everybody up and execute Maggie's family. Deep down I knew we needed to clear that barn and put Hershel's family out of their misery but this was not the way to do it.

Shane just stood up still staring into my eyes. The maniacal expression on his face was making my skin crawl, but I stood my ground.

“You calm your ass down right now! This isn't your decision to make!” I said. Everybody just stood there watching us cautiously. I looked up as I saw Lori finally get out of the house asking what was going on and Shane took advantage of that snatching my handgun from my hand and pointing it at me.

“What?” I asked. “You gonna shoot me like you shot Otis?” I spat out in his face. He just sneered at me but before he could do anything else, T-dog called out: “Oh shit!” pointing towards Rick, Jimmy and Hershel leading two captured Walkers towards the barn.

Shane quickly disarmed my gun throwing it on the ground and then ran towards Rick and Hershel screaming and growling and everybody followed close behind me. I picked up my gun and ran after them, cocking it back up. I just joined the group as Shane drew his handgun and shot three rounds into the woman Walker's chest.

“STOP IT!” Rick yelled at him but to no effect.

“That's three rounds in the chest! Could someone who's alive, could they just take that? Why is it still coming?!” He fired another shots. “That's its heart, its lungs! Why is it still coming?!” More rounds drilled into the Walker.

“SHANE, ENOUGH!” Rick yelled at him again.

“Yeah, you're right man, That is enough,” Shane replied as he walked up to the Walker shooting it into head right in front of Hershel who fell on his knees in shock. “ENOUGH! Risking our lives for a little girl who's GONE! ENOUGH! Living next to a barn full of things that're trying to kill us! ENOUGH! Rick, it ain't like it was before! Now, if ya'll wanna LIVE, if ya wanna survive, ya gotta fight for it! I'm talking about FIGHT, RIGHT HERE! RIGHT NOW!”

“SHANE DON'T!” I yelled at him raising my gun at him as he started running towards the barn but Rick yelled at me to stop and then screamed at Hershel to take the snare pole from him but he just knelt there, catatonic. Everybody was yelling at Shane to stop but he wasn't listening anymore.

Soon enough the door to the barn was wide open and Walkers started to crawl out towards us. Shane started shooting them closely followed by Andrea, T-dog, Daryl and reluctant Glenn. Then he shot the Walker Rick was holding on to and continued his execution. I just stood there next to Rick not knowing what to do. I saw Lori and Carl approach and I yelled at them to stay back and stood in front of them in case things got out of control. And then it was over and ominous silence fell all over the place. Everybody just stood there, silent, Hershel and his family was crying. Dale just caught up to us looking in horror at the scene before him.

And then we heard it, another growl coming from the shadows of the barn. Everybody raised their guns again, ready to finish what they started. And then she stepped out of the barn, the little girl we've spent days looking for in the woods. Her shoulder mauled, her face contorted and her blank eyes staring at us, mindless growls escaping her throat as she started to make her way towards us through the corpses littering the ground.

Everybody just stood there, motionless, paralyzed. Then Carol started to run towards her daughter but was stopped by Daryl. She started to cry desperately, closely followed by Lori and Carl. I felt my eyes water too as I watched the little girl approach us and saw Rick stepping up with determined expression on his face.He took out his gun and pointed it at Sophia but couldn't bring himself to do it. I stepped in front of him, taking the gun from his hands.

“No Rick,” he looked up at me, desperate, heartbroken. “You don't have to do this alone anymore,” I told him and turned around. I pointed the gun at the poor girl, whispering “Goodbye Sophia” as I pulled the trigger.

Notes

Hope you enjoyed this chapter, let me know what you think :-)

Comments

Please update soon!! I really like this story

I am really enjoying this story. I hope you go through all five seasons and beyond.

Natalie73 Natalie73
6/22/15

Omgsh, its getting crazy!! Hopefully kiara wakes up soon.

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4/1/15

Can't wait for updates! I'm hooked

Ashleyziur Ashleyziur
2/20/15

aww poor Kiara

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2/11/15