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Dead Men Walking

I'll Chase Away The Darkness

14:
I’ll chase away the darkness For once, I can see the sun.
Its brighter than I can ever remember it being. The rays of light dance around the sleepy city. Its early in the morning and I cant figure out how I got here.
Kay? What are you doing?
Cassie asked smiling.
Cassie?
Im amazed shes here. I want to touch her but Im afraid shell disappear.
But how are you here? I saw you die. I saw you…”
Death is temporary.
Cassie said smiling. Her face wasnt hers anymore. She was wearing a dead girls mask. She was decaying in front of me. Im reaching for her but I cant stop it. Shes turning into a corpse.
Cassie!
I scream as loud as I can but she cant hear me.
Shes just standing there. Her face grey, her eyes glassy, her skin pale and beginning to fall off her bones. This isnt my sister anymore.
Kaydence…”
She says. Her voice is still hers. But her face is something else completely.
Dont you love me?
She asks walking toward me.
I try to tell her I love her but I cant make the words come out. She isnt my sister anymore. Shes something less than human.
Kaydence, you can still be with me. And mom and dad. Its easy. It doesnt hurt.
She says happily.
What are you…”
You know how. Youve tried before. We miss you.
I still miss her.
I still miss them.
Itll be okay.
Cassie assures me as she steps closer and closer to me.
I close my eyes, as I had done a million times before, and feel her breath get closer and closer to me. Im ready this time. I want it to end this time.

“Kaydence.”
Someone said shaking me. I groaned, not wanting to open my eyes yet. I wasn’t ready to leave Cassie again.
“Kaydence, wake up.”
The shaking became angrier and angrier.
I slowly opened my eyes and looked up at Daryl.
“What?”
I asked irritated with him. I wasn’t ready to leave my dream. I don’t care if that’s all it was. Cassie was there. I can never see her again except for my dreams.
“You were screaming like a fucking lunatic in your sleep.”
He said eyeing me carefully.
“What? No I wasn’t.”
I said slightly embarrassed.
“You were. Nearly gave me a fucking heart attack.”

I rolled my eyes and sat up. It was dark out and I wasn’t sure where we were. Everything looked the same as we passed tree after tree. Occasionally I could see the movement of one of those things in the distance but it was mostly still outside. I wanted to be out there. I wanted to clear my head. The sight of Cassie was still lingering in my head.

“What were you dreaming about?”
Daryl asked after several awkward minutes of silence.
“Nothing.”
I lied.
“You weren’t screaming over nothing.”
“I don’t remember.”
“You can’t keep it to yourself all the time, ya know. It’s gonna catch up to ya.”

I scoffed and ignored Daryl. I wasn’t in the mood to play his silly games. I just wanted to see Cassie again. I wanted to be with her and mom and dad. I wanted to be gone. There’s nothing left for me here. I could be happy. Even if it was just a dream, Cassie was right. I could be happy again.
I watched out the window as it began to rain. The trees shook as the raindrops landed. It would be as easy as going to sleep. It could be as simple as the rain. I could do it…

“I don’t like that look, Kaydence.”
Daryl said studying my face.
“What look?”
“That look you’ve got on your face. I’ve seen it before. What ever you’re thinking, quit it.”
He said forcefully.
“I’m not thinking of anything. Just keep driving. We’re gonna lose the rest of the group with your driving.”
I said turning back to my window.
I watch as we passed another walker. She was staring up at the sky – watching the rain come down. She wasn’t as dead as the others I’ve seen. She had a bleeding gash right where her heart should be. She was covered in various cuts and bite marks. The rain was washing off some of the dried blood on her face and neck. She could have been pretty.
I realized how easy it could be. I knew from watching this one hungry undead woman how easy it could be. I knew what I could do.

I looked over at Daryl. His face was set in a frown as he watched the road. I would miss him but I missed them more.
I wanted to be with them. I wanted to see them again.
I watched Daryl carefully before throwing open my car door.
“The fuck are you doing?”
He screamed slowing to a stop.
“I love you.”
I whispered before jumping out of the truck. My only chance of getting away from him was running. So I ran. I ran as fast and as far away as I could.
I could hear him chasing me, screaming curse words as he followed. I wanted to stop and explain it to him. I wanted him to understand. I wanted to say goodbye.
Goodbye.
Goodbye?
I slowed my pace and allowed the younger Dixon to catch up to me.
“Jesus Christ. What the fuck are you doing?”
He was pissed and, unlike his brother, he wasn’t afraid to scream at me.
“I don’t want to do this anymore.”
I explained.
“Don’t want to what? Drive anymore? Be trapped in a car anymore? What is it Kaydence cause I’m sick of it all too!”
“That’s not what I mean and you know it.”
“Kaydence, don’t do this.”
“I want to. I don’t want to see all of this anymore. There’s so much death around and destruction. I want to be with my sister and my parents. I hate that I didn’t die with them. Why did I make it out and they didn’t?”

And then it happened.
I let it out.
Everything I had been keeping in for the last couple of months came out and I broke down. I didn’t care about being strong in front of Daryl. I didn’t care how weak or pathetic I looked. I let it out.
“I don’t want to be here anymore. This isn’t life. This is surviving but for what?”
“This is surviving to live. Giving up isn’t an option. Have you seen what it looks like to give up?”
He asked pulling me up off the ground.
“Where are we going? Let go.”
I said trying to jerk my hand out of his.
“Look. Go on, Kay. Look at this.”
He said pushing me toward the walker we passed earlier. She was growling and stumbling toward us. She was making noises like a wild animal as her teeth snapped repeatedly.
“Is this what you want to happen? This is what you truly want? Look at her. Do you think she wanted this? She would much rather be in your position, little girl. You’re giving all of this up.”
He said pushing me again toward the corpse. I cringed and stepped back away from her snapping mouth. She was reaching for me – arms stretched out, fingers searching for her next meal.
“I won’t care. I just want to see Cassie again.”
I said with a shaky voice. I sighed and stood still. The girl, if you could still call her a girl, was finally catching up to me. I wanted this. I wanted to be gone. I wanted to see my family again.
Daryl growled and pushed me out of the way. He walked up to the corpse and stuck a knife deep in her eye. He twisted the knife deeper in her brain. The sound of his knife scraping against her skull was almost more than I could handle.
“What about what I want? I want to keep seeing you every day. I don’t want to do this to you, Kaydence. I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to see you like this. I want to see you like you are now. I want to see you get mad at me. I want to see you blush when you think no one is looking. God dammit, Kay. I want to see you live.”
“But what kind of life is this? I’m running from these things every day of my life. And you know we can’t run fast enough or far enough to ever be safe.”
“I’ll keep you safe.”
He said taking me by the hand.
“Just stay with me.”

I sighed and gave in. I walked back to the same beat up old truck I had been living in for the past couple of months.
“Oh, and Kaydence?”
Daryl said as I got in the truck.
“Yeah?”
“I love you too.”
He whispered shutting my car door.

Notes

I've been extremely distracted with my psychology paper. But I had a dream the other night about this story and I thought it would fit in with the story. That's how this chapter was written. I know not everyone is going to be happy with the direction I took the story but I didn't want Kaydence to stray too far away from that broken girl she was earlier in the story. Thanks for reading/commenting/favoring <3

Comments

This made me cry. Not even joking. (When Merle died)

DarylisBae DarylisBae
8/27/14

Pleaseeee update. I love this so much!

Skyebbyxox Skyebbyxox
1/10/14
Didn't expect that omg :-( love it though :-)
Ceeekes Ceeekes
11/15/13
OMG didnt see that coming. lol. crazyness.
LuLu LuLu
11/15/13
loved it
LuLu LuLu
11/5/13