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I'll Keep You Alive If You Show Me The Way

Chapter 10: Fear The Living

The group pulled over into a field later that evening. Tents were set up and now Carol, Lori, Carl and Beth were trying to put together some kind of dinner. Glenn and Maggie left on a run. Rick just sat staring at a map with Hershel looking over his shoulder. T-dog kept watch. I lay stretched out on the grass staring at the clouds rolling through the blue sky. I think I deserved a rest and didn't give a damn if the others had a problem. But no one had come over.

Daryl had gone hunting, probably wanted to be alone after spending so much time with me. I rubbed the lump on my thigh were the bandage was. Why hadn't I died? I bit down on my lip, was it possible to be immune? If I was would that help anyone else? I had promised Daryl I wouldn't tell anyone but I wanted to. Hershel at least should know, but he'd tell Maggie, who'd tell Glenn, who'd blab to everyone.

"Hey."

I jumped at the sound of Daryl's voice.

"Jesus, you scared the crap outta me," I sighed.

"Saw that," he smirked, sitting down on the grass beside me. "Walkers don't talk."

"I do."

"Y'ain't a walker, Leigh," he sighed.

"I don't get it Daryl."

"Neither do I," he shrugged. I sat up and faced him.

"What ya want, Dixon?"

"What? Not allowed talk to y'now?" he said with a small smile. I narrowed my eyes at him.

"Are YOU bit?"

"No! Jeez, Harleigh."

"What are you doing?"

"Sittin'! Damn, I'll leave ya-"

"No, no. Sorry. You don't have to..."

He nodded. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a crumpled piece of paper.

"Hold out y'hand."

I did. He placed the paper into my hand. Frowning, I unfolded it and smoothed it out.

"That's you and y'sister, ain't it?"

I nodded in shock looking down at the photograph.

"She looks like ya."

I smiled at him and threw my arms around his neck.

"Thank you," I whispered as he gave me a small hug back.

"Hey! You two! Dinner!"Glenn shouted, back from his run.

Daryl pushed me away from him gently as possible. He helped me off the ground and we walked back side by side to the others.

xxx

"Do you remember the smell of pizza? The freshly cooked dough, the cheese melting on it in the oven. How one slice could fill you up but you still ate the whole thing."

"Harleigh, stop."

"Or freshly baked doughnuts, with chocolate icing and sprinkles. Or raw cookie dough... licking melted chocolate off a wooden spoon."

"Please, shut up!"

"Or nachos, covered in melted cheese with salsa on the side."

"Yeah," Glenn hummed finally just listening to me. We were both on watch, the only light was the full moon shining down on us.

"Chicken sandwiches."

"Yeah..."

"Gravy."

"Ok stop, seriously, I'm starving."

"Tacos. Cheesy fries-"

"Leigh, stop torturin' Glenn," I heard a southern drawl say behind me.

Glenn, Daryl, Sam and I were all perched on a large rock planted in the middle of the field. Glenn and I sat side by side. As usual, Daryl kept his distance.

"Hamburgers, Glenn, hamburgers."

Glenn groaned loudly. I laughed at him.

"You're evil," he said, smiling slightly.

He jumped down from the rock. Rick had told me I didn't need to stay watch, but I couldn't sleep. I stayed up with T-Dog who swapped with Rick, who swapped with Glenn and Daryl. I had chatted away to all of them, keeping them wide awake.

"Croissants!"

I laughed as he flipped me off. He laughed too, taking a sip from his water bottle.

"Do you miss being a delivery boy?" I asked him seriously.

"I miss the old world, not being a delivery boy though, no. You miss being a dancing waitress?"

I laughed at him. "Fuck no! I actually quite like the way it is now."

He raised his eyebrows. "Really?"

"Yeah, I got to stab people that I hated in the face," I shrugged.

I expected him to be taken aback but he laughed.

"That's true! I got to bash some assholes in the head."

I smiled. "Did you know Maggie before all this?"

"Nah, met her at the farm."

"Well, that's something good."

"Yeah, it's kinda like you and Rick!"

"Huh?"

"I think he has a thing for you. He was really pissed when you went missing..."

"But Lori..."

"They haven't been right for a-"

"Will y'quit ya yappin'?" Daryl snapped.

Glenn gave me look that said "what's his problem?" I shrugged back at him. I never really knew what went on in Daryl's head. If I think about it I just picture a squirrel running in a wheel. Keeping that little noggin' going. The sun began to peak up over the surrounding trees. People were emerging out of their tents, T-Dog made his way over to us and swapped. I decided not to stay and followed Daryl and Glenn back to the tents.

"Carol suggested we should try somewhere high up. I think we should see if we can find an apartment, a hotel maybe," Rick told us.

I walked closer to him and looked down at the map. I could feel how close we stood and I became aware of what Glenn had said. I searched the map.

"Here," I said, pointing at a spot where a hotel was.

Rick looked at me as Glenn and Daryl came closer for a better look.

"I stayed there, few months before all this. They were going to shut down because business was bad. I'd say we were the only guests they had in ages. That means not many died there. It's far from any town but that could mean some one else has it," I explained.

Rick nodded.

"It's the best we got."

After a really small breakfast we packed our bags and headed towards the hotel. I sat with Rick in the pick-up truck, Sam in the bed of the truck. I gave him directions from my head and he followed, the others behind us. Moments passed, he apologized for leaving me behind. I shrugged.

"I told you to leave if I didn't get back in time."

"You were going to make it. Lori got a fright and told me to leave."

I nodded, I didn't voice the fact that I thought Lori was kind of an idiot. I'm pretty sure he already knew. He smiled gently at me.

"You're back now though."

"Thanks to Daryl," I said, reminding him that he was also missing.

Rick nodded and we fell silent again. I always felt awkward whenever there was silence between us. Bored, I fiddled with the radio. I knew nothing would happen but it distracted me from the silence. All I got was static.

"Any... out..." a muffled voice spoke. I jumped and turned to Rick. He stared at the road ahead. Had I imagined the voice? I started to believe I was going crazy until Rick reached down and started turning dials. Static. Rick punched the steering wheel.

"C'MON!" he yelled. I turned up the volume.

"Day three hund... Refugees... Florida... Geor... Cal... ona..."

"Georgia, he said Georgia!" Rick said putting a hand on my shoulder. I nodded with him.

"A cure has been found."

The sentence rung through my ears. A cure? Is this true? I shook my head in disbelief.

"Rick, I don't trust this," I said.

He looked at me wide eyed still trying to keep focus on the road.

"Are you kidding me?"

"How do we know that this isn't replay? Or that this isn't some group of people trying to lure people in?"

Rick pulled over. I looked up at the hotel. A sign hung at the entrance, it read "CL S D." The once bright yellow building was now grey, windows were boarded, and ivory climbed the walls. Weeds grew in flowerbeds and the grass had grown long it reached the knees of the group members that were already looking around.

"This is the first sign of hope. The first sign that we could get all have a future and you say it's not real? They said day three hundred at least! It's been a year Harleigh!"He argued. I shook my head, folding my arms

"Rick, you are so busy fearing dead you forget about the living,"I hissed.

He looked a bit taken aback. I opened the door and got out. The others were looking over this way. Obviously they had seen us arguing. I called Sam to my side and observed him. He seemed relaxed enough.

"Seems to be abandoned," Glenn piped up through the silence that had fallen.

I leaned against the bonnet of the pick up truck looking at the entrance door. Everyone's eyes were on me. I guessed they expected me to barge in like I had done before. But I just wasn't bothered with trying anymore. What was the point? We'd have to move again. What if Rick was right about the radio? I had just talked him out of it. If he's right I'm gonna feel really guilty. Right now I wanted these people out of my life, I wanted to be left alone. But I also wanted their company. I stood there battling with myself while the others tried coming up with a plan.

"Harleigh...Harleigh?"

"What?" I sighed to the disembodied voice.

"Can you send Sam in?"

I nodded and dragged myself towards the entrance. I opened the door and Sam trotted inside. I grabbed a loose brick to keep the door open. I walked back to the bonnet and waited. I could hear Sam barking a few times, but I knew he was alright. I felt someone lean against the bonnet beside me. I looked up at Daryl, holding a loaded crossbow.

"What happened?" he asked. I shrugged.

"Cut the crap, Leigh. What's wrong?"

I laughed at the question. "What's right, Daryl? What the fuck is the point of all this?"

"To live-"

"Live for what?" I spat. "There's nothing here for me anymore."

Daryl hadn't the chance to reply, Sam shot out of the building followed by twenty walkers. Daryl started shooting at them. He then punched me in an attempt to pull me out of my trance. I remembered we couldn't use guns. I held up my bow and tried to hit them. But I couldn't. I had lost the will to fight them. What the hell was wrong with me? I felt so tired and fed up. I could see Lori watching me in desperation clutching Carl. Rick was just looking at the walkers spilling out of the hotel.

"HARLEIGH!" Daryl spat. "Get y'fuckin' shit together."

I shook my head, he was right. I got a grip on myself and took down five walkers. Daryl shot the last one. He threw me a dirty look before leaving to retrieve his arrows.

Notes

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Comments

I'm super sad because I've realized this may never get updated. It's legitimately the best story on this site

wolvesyroses wolvesyroses
1/17/16

Oh I really love this story. I hope it gets updated >< please update!

Gilyflower Gilyflower
3/25/15

This is the most amazing story ever on this site ever please update. Harleigh is amazing and you are a great writer.

reddeadwalker reddeadwalker
10/21/14

Amazing writing, as always.

SierraaDixon SierraaDixon
3/22/14

Holy crap please update!!! This is one of the best I've read in a long time!!!

elissa_mirinda elissa_mirinda
3/16/14